Motivation

I can't seem to find any

Behind every great man is a great woman. If the saying holds true i shall become an elder god.

I shall aspire high, i'll face what i hate and i'll grow stronger for it.
What am i talking about? Uni of course! I may be late but it's better than never.

I may lack the higher to gain entry to my desired course but i'im sure my other qualifications and experience will hold.

Here goes, Wish me luck!

When will you come back to me my love?

Black hole sun

Won't you come?

It has been a month and not a lot has changed in my life.

I can claim that i've been on a night out for the first time in months which is a small win. Watched 'Moon' with Sam Rockwell & Kevin Spacey which has been my plan for a while. It doth rock.

I'm getting the pre christmas feeling right about now. When Halloween has passed it'll hit me full force... damn advertising. On the other hand it does inspire joy like none ever seen.

Catch me in the right mood at christmas and i'll do anything that isn't illegal or unsanitary!

More importantly lies the choice at the end of next month. My purchasing skills are key. I'd go as far as to say legendary but..

Less is more???

I'm going to pull you in close

I've found my christmas song!
Long day at work. Sorcerers Apprentice with Chiz afterwards. It's all very enjoyable.

I'm teary tonight, i might just be tired. Theres no escapism or any peace. Even 'the picture of Dorian Gray' doesn't relax me, the amount of homo-eroticism is very uncomfortable. It's no wonder he was sent to jail..Not that it's a bad book or he's a bad writer...

Mini rant/ First chapter breakdown - 'So right i'm painting your picture and you mind that guy i mentioned one time that i met in a bar?'

'Aye?'

'Well i'm gonna describe him as a beautiful perfect being for about 12 pages and how he's all amazing and all mine and i feel like i've projected something of myself into him. He completes me.'

'Ok, Lets meet him.'

'No...aw ok then'. FIN

Not long till christmas

Disarm

Week off. Busy one. Ohh yaaa

Electric razor started working again so hell yeah to that. In the habit of going to sleep at 5 in the morning, waking up 5 at night. Need to get my pattern back and get my three meals a day back in.

Think i may get myself that laptop finally. Get myself a wee cam and make a photography folder. Something different that i can reflect on...

Smallvilles getting awesome

80th

It's my grandfathers birthday tonight and it's been an awesome night.

So why am i so sad?

He's one crazy old coot...gave me the whole shpeil about joining the masons and what not which the constant background question 'do you believe in god?' eventually you have to say yes...i mean...he's old.. haha

I've found someone new in my life, her name is lizzy caplan and she's an american actress born in los angeles..Now i just need to get there..and famous..and sexually attractive.. and every other desirable feature... damn.

Almost my week off from work. I'll need to plan ^-^

Doomsday

Today was my first day off in a while, Really needed it. I'm falling to bits

Visited my grandmothers grave today, got me to thinking how well i knew her, what her message was to me. I'd like to believe the only reason we exist in each others lives is to affect their development in a certain way, so how did she relate to me apart from being the woman i used to adore.

Glasses have broken, car broke down, lost a float. I think i'm going insane. Need to lay off the hardcore cocaine and get my head sorted.

M where are you

could use someone to talk to

Beautiful Disaster

Today seems like a good day, burn a bridge or two.

4 Opens in a row. Takes me back to the school and college days. Can't really be bothered with it. Eclipse aswell.

This is turning out so be one really sad week guys! Darkest before the dawn and all that so here's praying...Lottery!!!

A month gone by without a blog, i think it may be going out of fashion

Smallville rolls on.