Ohhhh heart! your heart! our heart!

oh jee whizz...oh boy and all the other silly sayings!

<3!

have no idea what i'm saying... okay... i'm leaving now =)

Countdown!

It's been a while!

This shall be very brief. I'm 4 days away from becoming 20. The feelings slightly scary, exiting my teens. Spooky stuff....next thing you know i'll be doing manly stuff like drinking beer and gambling...slash!

Oh work time is here! please come by and save me, an easy shift though but woooooooooooo. I'm almost getting a week off =) I'm buzzing!!!!!!!!

Come dine with me x

Lets get drunk untill we can't feel feelings!

This is how i feel, spur of the moment emotions flowing!

Today i believe i've made the most of my day, starting with volunteer work for a marketing team under falkirk council. It's something new and wonderous! A bit of exaggeration though i don't mind something extra to do, my life is truly starting to bore me...

The weekend is almost upon me! and i'm slightly excited it's all going down now =)

In the past two days i've been totally lost in my work. Completely forgot that i loved music or that i had a social life outside work. Today i'm really still feeling that tension because i seem to be un-motivated to do anything.. i.e Lets get it started ( I know its not the greatest choice but music is like love, you just can't choose who you do) The bassline inspires me but i really can't be bothered!

Grrrrrrrr inner tiger hatred spinning punch!!!

Time to really hit the bottle! (For those of you reading, i rarely drink. Honestly)

Oh Joyce, Lord Save Me

Under the bridge

Tonight is gonna be the late night of destruction. Ladder training, super meeting and the count all within a time limit.

God save me. or send someone to help!

18 days and i am a new man =D Thats right on the eve of my 20th birthday i'm gonna be purely buzzing. Nothing planned however...i need idea's so i don't look like i'm completely boring. Maybe i'm starting the pre-birthday buzz a bit early...gonna be shattered by the 20th muhahahah but i love eeeeeet!

oh "M" your like my M-burger even though i never had one and i'm not sure i'd like it but you still rock =) Your reminding me of an everly brother song right now, dreaaaaaam dream dream dream

Sing it back MOLOKOOOOOOOOOO

Ever tidied your room and found like a bunch of useless crap that relates to memories? yes? well this is one of my days!

Today i'm feeling very energetic, so i'm putting this energy towards tidying along to a remix of a classic song i do love. In my cleaning mission the first item that came to my attention was a collection of photo's my father made for me from our old computer years and years ago.. reminds me of my wild-child side! all the trips i've ever been on and friends accross the years!

This one on the rights from yeaaaars ago when i was like 12/13 maybe just about to attend a wedding. Almost 7/8 years ago, Though i think he still looks pretty close to the finished product =D

Moving onnnnnnnnn...

I found a little safe my mother had bought me years back because i loved storing money, just knowing i had it, counting it, sorting it into little bundles. Sad right?

Maybe

But i did find a lot of awesome stuff i'd left behind including £100!!!! Long forgotton but i remember now when i was younger and i got my first job i put that away for a just incase fund...smart little cookie ;) . Stored beside that was a ticket for spiderman 2 on 25/7/04 Which i remember very vividly. T'was a boring summers day and Big in Falkirk was on the go, it was completely awful so me and some friends went to the cinema instead! This was the first time i'd went to the new cinema, it was also the first time i met my predecessor, Martyn Dundas. I was just 14 and at the time he was a multifunctional, the only reason he stood out was because i was taken by shock at a Martyn with a "Y".... well i thought it was pretty sweet at the time ok! So i got a picture with him serving at the counter and saw spiderman 2 which was awesome!

Among my lost items i found a ticket for an old band called "Wishbone Ash" whom i went to see at the liquid room with my father and Craig T. Ages ago! We learned two of their songs and they didn't play either of them, totally gutted.

It's unbelievably sunny so i'm gonna get off this and sit outside sipping some sailor J and cola. It's a good day =)

Pretty fly for a white guy!

On a slightly lighter note, star wars...its escapism!

A saturday off is just what i need, though i have not a lot to do with it...slightly feel like neglecting my creative side! All the movies out are totally gash. Everyones busy. Everydays a new day!

it's decided then i'm gonna do something epic. Something unexpected, or maybe keep watching star wars. grrrrrrr boredom kill me not!

Given the time, i suppose i should mention the election or something. Everyones bad mouthing each other so it's quite difficult to tell a good party from a bad one. No positive points at all. What a mess politics has become.

aaaaaaaaaand i know i'm about 25 days away from it but the day of reckoning is coming when i shall become 20 and the lord shall falter down into depths, Satan himself shall knight me his weapon of terror on blades of frost and bubbling scolding waters. In other words i'll probably do something stupid like go to the time capsule, as silly as it seems i do love the sauna, steam room, jacuzi, ice skating! Really rocks my socks off

taking a look at the date again it's just about 20 days! Woooooo

Okay its quarter past 3 and there's no reason to stay up so i'm gonna have some coffee and dream a little dream

I turn my back, close my eyes, walk the other way.

But still stuck in the same place.

Hello all. I'm Craig, and since i can remember i've detested drugs or people who use drugs for no purpose. Tonight was the enivitable climax of the dramatic scene i'd like to call "a friendship lost". As silly as it might seem to me to be judging, there's method in my madness.

christ knows what i'm saying anymore. The fact of the matter is, i cannot condone what has been done. In the split minute i had to think of my decision, i looked at what the just Craig Alston would do...or what the forgiving one would do. Ultimately ever factor of my being had known the answer since long before. I drove away, contrary to running away since this problem will continue...

I've made my decision and i'll stick by it. In the end i never really needed any guidance because i've always known the answer to this problem so many people fall victim to. All i nedeed was someone to confide in. To understand...

Now i'm left with one person

is one person enough?

Darker Than Black

Have you ever felt so used up as this?

4 closes in a row and i've got a headache. However this is the lesser of 2 evils.

I wish i could go on saying something really philosophical like an end to war through removing law and instating a utilitarian community world-wide...but i'm not that smart. There's only one thing stuck on my mind and i am a total sucker for you...

So much so that i can't think of anything to write in this blog, that an i have a massive headache.

My birthday is coming up and my mothers getting very anxious as her's is the day before mine. Always conjuring some whacky idea of a joint party though her popularity far outshines mine. My idea of a good time would be to get surprised, hasn't happened in years but i'm hopeful.

At this very second there's a high pitch frequency humming in my ear and it's killing me!

Tuesday...Count night....always starts alright...ends up shite...and graemes tight
so we all share the lust for deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeath!!!!!!

Thats my count song...made it up last tuesday =)