Dear Dierdre

It has been roughly 20 days since my last confession.

Nothing has changed. Life is boring. Christmas is sorted

Two weeks off work has helped me crack through the Buffy saga from start to season 4

Big week planned from the 10th to the 17th..
10th Family Dinner
14th Disney Roadshow - Edinburgh
16th Staff night out
17th Families Christmas party

I may be dead by Christmas

You load 16 tons and what do you get?

Another day older and deeper in debt. St peter don't you call me because i can't go
I owe my soul to the company stove.

Classic from the 1950's at 1955 it was the highest selling single, pretty impressive.

I've decided to turn my attention from work and really focus on my piano since it seems to be the only thing keeping me sane. Practised for the entire day. Learned a very beautiful piece. At the end of today i've looked back on my progress and realised to what end did i practise this?

To quench my hunger for learning, impress others or out of sheer boredom. When you don't know the answer then a daunting truth hits, a voice that says 'No one will hear this piece' In essense is my day wasted? No.

I look back on today and say, i havnt practised like that for years. The dynamics of this piece still need attention and that will only come after it becomes fluent. However, i have learned a new style of playing that i had only seen being used. With this realisation, i know that this song i learned so that someone would fall in love with me.

Who wants that honey?

My blood boils. I cannot sleep.

My head is filled with thoughts of my love, her curves send my soul on fire. However when i close my eyes to sleep my minds filled with confrontation of violent nature. So tell me do i suffer from Lust or Wrath.

I know which one i want to suffer from. I think i'll tell her.

Besides the point, i cannot sleep.

Now i'm nostalgic as to back in the day when i'd hang out with friends near everyday and we'd record songs. That was real happiness. It feels like my lifes wasting away now.. I need some action in my life and i'm gonna get it. Roll on a band! (Again)

I've decided i can't sleep because i'm excited to see her

Holidays almost over

Whereas i have nothing to show for my week off i'm very happy to say i've enjoyed myself which was exactly what i needed.

I've learned that going up Falkirk town is always a constant mistake. I have no idea why i keep trying. Had more fun at home having a little drink with family and friends. In that sense i am exactly like my parents. I'm not seeing the allure of going out, i wonder if you do.

Now to just look forward to the christmas period =D

On an extremely brighter note! in 3 weeks time i have another fortnight off...oh yes

Why won't the pumpkins come back to the UK?

Poptart, whats the matter?

Did you lose what your after?

Went out last night for the first time in ages, didn't go as bad as i thought it would. A nice break.. eventually all the girls started talking about breasts and got some really awkward feeling so we left!

Death row and New Vegas night which was fun. Apart from snoring, this guy snores like a motherf*cker. I've been up since 6.

Darker Morning & Darker Days make me happy. I'll just try to hold on

Here is no why

Desperate and displeased. With whoever you are. Your a star.

Lost inside the dreams, of teen machines.

The world is a vampire.

Sittin still was never enough

Intoxicated with the madness, i'm in love with my sadness

Time is never time at all. You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth.

Despite all my rage i'm still just a rat in a cage!

Shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time

Who wants that honey? just as long as theres some money.

Tell me all of your secrets, cannot help but believe them.

Tell me i'm the only one, jesus had no other son

Try to hold on, to this love. A little bit longer.

Try, try, try, try, try, try, try

Poptart, whats our mission? do we know but never listen

We must never be apart.

I know you better than your thinking

Anphetamine, annie dog...

And i don't even care to shake these zipper blues

Fool enough to almost be it, cool enough to not quite see it.

Pick your pocket full of sorrow, run away with me tomorrow.

Try and ease the pain, somehow we feel the same well
no one knows, where our secrets go

I send my heart to all my dearies when your life is so so dreary

I'm over to the straight and narrow, where the harlots of my perils scream.

And i'll fail, but when i can. I will
Try to understand. That when i can, i will

I just want to be me.

Mother weep the years i'm missing, all that time can't be given...back

Week Off!

In a week! but i'm still looking forward to it. I have been offered to go stay in Milton Keynes with my Auntie whom i miss dearlie but i think i'd rather leave that to my two week holiday in November! Buzzing!

I will do something with it. Unlike last time when it was wasted away on long lies and in general 'lazy days'

Re-discovered a love for Europe - The Swedish 80's band who couldn't find any luck with producers in their home country, came to ours and found fame. Every song is basically the same, but it's that distinction, that tiny difference in each song that makes it so much more special. Gives you the seem feel so you know it's the same band but has a completely different meaning. Truly amazing at their respective instruments.

I don't think i can handle or be bothered with 6 new members of staff... it's all so similiar as last time.

I need suggestions honeybunch